Shikira ReNae Savage

So you have probably noticed that my blog looks different well thanks to my dear friend Chelsey we edited it last night and this morning (cause I fell asleep on her last night, sad day). So make sure to look at all the new goodies that are on here and remember things are changing all the time so make sure to keep checking up on it. Today I am going to try to push by my sickness and get to work on my books but first get cleaned up from all the grossness I have due to being sick. But I am really going to work to get these books out to you guys no more procrastinating no more excuses (Unless I get deathly ill in which case sorry haha). So how I decided to make it easier and I realize to some of you, you will think I'm making it harder but for me it's easier I'm going to write in a notebook while using my computer for other things to keep me focused like movies or something then when I get it all worked out I will type it up on my computer. I am weird I know I have been told lo...

So no doctors appointment yesterday....why? I got the stupid stomach flu and so did my mom, so next Friday is the new appointment day. But on the bright side I feel much better today I slept all day yesterday and I think that helped me feel much better. I have had a couple things to eat today and have kept it all down so I think it is helping get my strength up. So I have a new second cousin I would prefer for their privacy to only put the name we will be calling her on her so her name is Ella and she is absolutely perfect I can't wait to meet her, I love her already!!! I am super close to her sisters and my cousin their mom and they just posted a picture of the three girls holding their little sister I have never seen a cuter picture!!!! My dad is doing a lot better since his infection he is getting back to eating three meals a day which is exciting and he defiantly needs the strength. So now onto a new top 10 list so just for fun I am going to list the songs that a...

I want to give some big important reason why I didn't get on yesterday for a blog. You know something like a big super bowl party or a family vacation or something. But I must be honest I slept all day. So yeah I woke up about 2:30 this afternoon people had already come and seen my parents and I was just passed out cold on my chair. I was so tired the night before I didn't even make it to the bedroom haha. I didn't do what most people did yesterday there was no super bowl for me, I didn't even know it was today until my dad went down to watch it haha. I know huge crime but lately I have really been into movies and if it doesn't have to do with books or movies I'm not interested. Sorry not sorry hahaha. So I thought because of this movie phase that I am in I will give you my top ten movies at this exact moment. Just know it changes constantly so don't be surprised if I am asked this or do another list like this and everything is different. 10: Suicide ...

Finally a new computer that won't delete my work. So a lot has happened and yet not that much if that makes sense at all. My dad got an infection and is currently on a pick line with antibiotics. It is actually the exact opposite of an infection he has not enough white blood cells so they are trying to get his count up. After weeks of not eating and him starting to lose weight he ate a whole meal yesterday so we are so excited. We have to move we don't know where or when yet but we are getting evicted so that's a bit stressful but because my dad is so sick the only way they are aloud to evict us is if they hire movers with their own money for us so yay!!!! I finally got that sleep over with my dear friend Amberle and after everything it is a much needed break. We talked watched a few movies and just had one on one time it was great. I know my writing hasn't progressed much but I am going to the doctor on Tuesday and hopefully find out why I h...

Today I am going to bring awareness I don't think a lot of people know about. Now this isn't to make anyone feel bad for me I am okay trust me but this is incase I can help anyone else going through the same thing. I had a really great childhood with the best parents and brother a girl could ask for and for the most part I was a really happy childhood. At a young age though my mom started noticing I got scared to easily but not in horror movies or anything like that and it wasn't fear it was worry about everything. I worried about things kids my age shouldn't be even thinking about. As I got older it got worse followed by other things. I started loathing myself and became very dark, I wouldn't smile much I wouldn't laugh often and hardly ate. All I knew was that the pain was the worst thing I had ever felt. I fought telling anyone about it and kept it bottled up so tight I couldn't breath until it exploded. Junior high was the worst and during ninth grade...

So things have been happening in my family I would rather not discuses until I know all the facts so please bare with me as I haven't made the youtube videos I wanted to make and my lack of blogs I'm trying by best. Anyway so today I decided since I don't have much to talk about I'm going to talk about some of the things I am addicted too when times like these arise and I struggle with being happy and I want to break away from this world. First I will tell you about what I can talk about and then I will jump into my recreational activities. So I have been having a lot of trouble sleeping and I think it is because of being out of anxiety medicine for so long luckily I get that back today. We are a tad late but we are taking our  Christmas stuff down tomorrow we have all been not feeling good so it has been hard to do anything. Also my computer is on it's last leg so if I have times I can't get on that's probably why. I got to see my uncle today and he gave ...

Yesterday was probably the best day I had in a long time probably since September at least. I got to go hang out with one of my besties Amberle. I am not going to lie and say it was easy would be a lie I have become very closed off and have really bad social anxiety I haven't even left the house since the day after Christmas. So I had a panic attack/crying fit in the shower but then it was over and I was okay. It was so nice to talk to someone  and we went out and got soda then just hung out at her house. We are having a sleepover tomorrow so hopefully that will help me become social again. I guess ever since my dad got sick I started hiding behind my computer, notebooks and books but new year is time to change. I got home around four thirty or five and was so tired from staying up all night that I totally passed out by six hahaha. Today hasn't been great I feel like I'm having a heart attack and that no one will listen to me they are always blaming it on my anxiety ...